Schizophrenia is part of the autism spectrum disorders, the psychiatrists say. I work not too well with people, even if I did teach for a long time, which means talking to a lot of young people. But I usually am very nervous, shy and a little anxious in groups, and I cannot really do partnerships extremely well, even if I like them and love people. That’s why I often end up lonely and never married. Even if I like company, I cannot handle a lot of interaction. I like writing instead.
It is a disability like blindness or autism, and at the same time an ability (in my case clairaudience and high intelligence of some sort, at least I scored very high once, I think) like synaesthesia. It is an illness, like maybe diabetes or blindness, might be caused by one’s own wrongdoing, like wrong diet or whatnot, or by default, and might be curable, or not. It might be that people with this illness have other special abilities to either cope with it or just because.
I hear a lot of voices, even when I am alone and even when other people say they don’t hear them. I don’t know what or who I hear, but apparently things that other people don’t. I heard the voice of my ex-partner for a long time while separated many, many miles from him without any contact. Now, I hear a lot of unidentifiable voices and my family, who live in a different country than me, and start to have spiritual and other visions (clairvision).
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